I got nothin’…blogs are behind on this site and others. I literally went retarded the past few weeks. I’ve been so focused on securing sponsors for numerous upcoming things, trying to organize my gear for my upcoming meet, working with clients that I lost my sense of fun and am swimming in my own pernicious idiocy now. So…fuck it, blow a fart and paint it green, chalk up, drink up, screw up and piss in public…ok, I feel better now. Sometimes we just get so busy that we forget who we are, what we were doing and why we were doing it.
When you lose the fun, passion becomes a burden. Like all things, we get used to routines, names and faces and even our own situation. We start to take things for granted or we stop trying as hard as we should because bliss turns to boredom. Next time you get under the bar, behind the pen or whatever it is that you do, remember why you started it. Why you are good at it, and why you are LUCKY to be able to do it!
We could be legless and not able to squat, blind, armless, or any number of things that keep us from our passion. Even the fact that I am able to type this and you are able to read it means we are better off than most. So my computers old and my office smells like old Chipotle….it’s still mine and it’s still part of my passion and dream to own my own gym and promote my own methodology and product. Thanks to you, people know about me and without all of you, I would be nothing.
Am I being cliche’? Sappy? Melodramatic? Maybe…maybe not.Maybe I’m just happy to be sharing an office and a business with a my brother from another mother and making something we have both dreamed of…maybe it’s my hormones or the moon or who the hell knows what and really…who fuckin cares….it’s just because I said so…
jen
November 20, 2010
For having ‘got nothing’ ‘, you certainly said something that rang true with me! My son was asking me yesterday when I was going to take a vacation. It’s been a year since my husband left us and I decided to say ‘what the fuck’ and do what makes ME happy for once. So this year has been full of starting new businesses and learning how to get clients…and I’m still learning and growing and figuring shit out. A vacation isn’t anything I’ve had in a year, nor do I forsee one in the next couple of years. But I’m blessed to be doing the things that bring me immense joy and happiness. And I get to kick people’s asses and improve their lives, all at the same time. Just about perfect, if you ask me! Sometimes I do feel what you described so perfectedly…when your passion becomes a burden. when you’re just checking boxes and getting shit done. Thank you for the reminder to remember WHY we are doing what we do!